Everyone has their scars – battle wounds of life that they carry with them as they go on. These can be sources of pride and strength or dark clouds that continue following you around. Maybe a little of both. They can define you, or merely be speed bumps along the way. But everyone has them. Here’s my big one.
I actually started outlining this blog post a few days before Georgie’s due date. I was going to post it on the actual due date, but she was born two days early so that plan went out the window.
I started a long post about the Monsoon trailer shoot but it got all rambly. I wanted to talk about the ups and downs of production, the emotional journey of shooting such a personal story, and the awesome people I was able to work with. And just like that, I have in a single sentence. I’ll keep the rest short.
I read this blog post by Seth Godin a few months ago. It seemed like a great idea. I know there’s a lot of debate whether or not it’s helpful to announce goals. I think it depends on the person. For me, at least, I find it’s a motivator. I like being held accountable, so announcing things is helpful to me.
I really loved my car. Violet’s car was newer, and nicer, but my car was more fun to drive. It was also completely paid off and not quite six years old. So I sold it.
I’ve had writer’s block before. It’s not so bad. More than anything it’s a matter of getting past the fear from anticipation and starting to write. It’s lots of procrastination and then more procrastination. But at least you know what project you’re stuck on or at a dead end with. A bottleneck of projects and ideas is different.
I survived my first marathon and it was amazing. I enjoyed it so much more than I thought I would. I initially signed up on a whim, but tried really hard to stick to my training to begin with. Back in September, just before we moved, I felt that not only would I finish, but I would also have a decent showing. The last six weeks were a mess though. After sporadic training during that period, I was hopeful just to be able to finish. Here are my thoughts by mile of the experience.
The journey to making Monsoon began with a mentor who was interested in producing it. He had a relationship with a young up-and-coming actress who was on a popular TV show at the time. I met with them for dinner and had a fantastic night. They were awesome, she really responded to the script, and there was talk of bringing other actors they had relationships with into the fold. At the end of the night, I handed both of them a copy of the short film I had made a few months earlier.
It’s been a busy year production-wise so far. The first three months were devoted entirely to getting Casey shot. That ended up taking a lot more time than planned, especially with the extra recording and planning time for the performance aspect. Then there was Chutes. Chutes 1.5 is finally being released online. The Chutes Vlogs are in post-production. The entire process from script to getting the thing shot was pretty fast for the Vlogs, but still all consuming with time over the last few months. Then there are the features. We’re working hard to get two features shot next year. What seemed like an impossible task earlier in the year now seems more and more feasible. Extremely difficult and still without any guarantees, but feasible. And all of this has been awesome.
The final follow up day is fast approaching for Monsoon. I had resigned myself to the fact that I wouldn’t be making this script a while ago, so if it sells, I would obviously be ecstatic. But it’s been a few years since I’ve entertained the thought of making it myself. And the more I think about it, the more it excites me.